the "6pm meltdown"

"Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition" ~Alexander Smith

Some days I find that I need to take a step back and remind myself that things are not all about me and this was definitely one of those weeks.

The week certainly didn't "revolve" around me 100% by any stretch of the imagination but there were parts that I felt did. 3 days of running the bookfair, 1 day of working for a friend in a bind, my usual volunteering etc., but looking back if I could take back the "after 6pm" part of the day I would because it was way too self centered.

By 6pm each day I was exhausted. I seriously could have tucked myself in and gone to sleep if the kids would have agreed (they didn't but it was a good thought at the time!). Instead I was short on patience, too tired to "help" and didn't give anyone the benefit of the doubt. By the time Chris got home from a 3 day business trip "he couldn't do anything right"and I was stuck in a hole where life was all about me and only me. It is times like this that I need to start working hard at taking a step back, realizing that there will be weeks like this, that there is almost always a compromise and that I only get one shot at each day so make the most of it. I need be thankful of all that my husband does, of all that he gives and I need to meet him in the middle 100% of the time. I don't want to forget the excitement I still have when he comes home from work (which usually gets brushed aside quickly), or the longing I have for him when he is away and I'm swallowed in our King bed alone. I need to acknowledge more all the positives he has brought to my life. I need to have a better attitude after a long day and try to do better at being the person I want to be ALL day EVERY day.